Sunday, November 06, 2005

not meant to be

i feel like i've been mentally and psychologically abused.. by the one i love.. or loved.. it's heartbreaking.. i'm not strong. words hurt me.. i am not loved.. not wanted..does that mean i've been used? but matrimonial ties are sacred and allows no room for that.. have i chosen wrong? did i make the wrong move? nothing should stand in the way of love.. for love, one should be able to forgive each other's wrongs and right them if need be.. what is a life without love.. from the love which you crave.. from a love that does not bind you through blood but social ties... is it a love that easily fades away? one that is unforgiving and demanding.. i have love no more... but i have new life in me.. a life that will one day see the world he'll live in and watch it's cruelty cuased by mankind.. for all that is good comes from Allah (s.w.t) and all that is bad comes from mankind himself.

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nani said...

hi nana. dun feel too bad okay?

i'm not sure wats going on, bt frm d sound of it.. hmm. wat i can say *n it's not much since i'm not married, hehe* i guess marriage has their ups n downs. some time during it, u might question d choice u've made, betul ke... salah ke.

r u meant for each othr n u wonder why at times it's so hard to love d one person who u once thought to be 'd one' for u. i guess... d only thing i can say is dat, sometimes people forget why they chose to be wit d one their wit now. maybe u remembered, but maybe it just slipped frm his mind.

dun loose heart dear. people say it's easy to forgive n forget, but dat doesn't apply to everyone. dun try to force urself to forgive n forget, coz u'll only get resentful. just remember why u said yes.

n once in a while, remind him why u did. maybe he just needs hearing it frm u too...

am i making sense? or am i totally off?? hehehe... sorrie gal. i'm just filling up d blank spaces in my head... take care... luv.

azrina said...

thnks nani. ur rite bout the ups n down. all is well now;) and i'm pregnant!!:D

ratna said...

Rina... alhamdulillah.. really happy to hear that you are pregnant now. Semoga Allah mudahkan segalanya for you. Dan rina, always exercise patient whenever you face difficulty or problem in your marriage life. Remember that Allah selalu bersama orang2 yg sabar. Ratna doakan semoga kalian selalu bahagia and live in harmony always..

nani said...

preggie?? waaaaaa.. congrats dear!!!! hehehe... will be hearing pitter patter of feet soon... =p... take care gurl..

azrina said...

thank you ratna.. terharu dgr kata2 awak.. i agree,marriage is not always even ground.. but we're getting on marvellously now:) especially with our baby on the way.. my prayers are with u too;)