help..i'm stuck in a dead end job to which i'm tied to for a minimum of 2 years.. it's so depressing..i can't even describe it.. my career journey has been like this eversince i graduated.. income wise, i'm getting more than before.. but it's still not a job suitd to my personality and interest.. why is it that when i run away from one suffocating job, i end up with another? maybe this is just a test for me.. but i can't take it!!
sure the people here are all nice and friendly.. but i don't seem to be able to fit in. it's like i'm not one of them.. I think differently, i act differently.. sadly, i don't want to do anything to ruin the image of my 320 something colleagues at other ministries.
don't get me wrong.. it's splendid here, right where i am.. the work burden is not too much.. i get my own private room.. extended break hours are tolerated.. my immediate boss hardly pressures me much. it's just me.. i don't enjoy this kind of environment. i don't enjoy the interaction that i'm supposed to have.. i don't feel competent enough to fill in this position.. i feel like i'm cheating others.. i am not who i want to be..
i don't know how long my existence on earth will be.. i was hoping to fill my days pursing my dreams.. so why am i glued here against my wishes?