contradiction

sometimes, i like to contradict what i say.. i know i shouldn't but it comes to me (naturally?). at times i can be so optimistic and i feel like bursting with joy:) there are times i feel down and nothing can lift me up:( there are so many things i want in life. and i'm impatient with waiting for it to happen. if i want something, i want it now! but most of the time it's not possible because nature takes its course.. and anything that conceives time has it's own pace.. so patience is something i must learn, to have and to hold inside of me..