if that weren't bad enough.. i was feeling so faint after delivering from blood lost. my BP was low. and i couldn't get up without feeling dizzy and fainted once when after a visit to the restroom which was just steps away from my bed. after that i resorted to releasing my bladder from bed using a pan with the nurses help. i knew then how it must feel to be old and dying.. i can't help remembering my husband's late grandma lying helpless in bed while people tended to her as if she was an infant.
now that i'm home i am faced with a whole new challenge - breastfeeding. breastmilk is the best milk. but why does the whole breastfeeding process have to hurt? my left side bled a few days ago and i was horrified to find my blood all over my baby's mouth. mommy's sorry hariz.. now it looks like the right side is cracking.. sigh.. can't i get anything right? i could only pray for a smooth sailing motherhood. just looking at how hariz danial turned out - his smile, adorable face, cooing, facial expressions, intelligence, baby smell and cuddliness - i just know that i can make it..